Subcontious

So today is Kay's Birthday, and i find myself sitting her missing her and feeling very lonely. Fun right.

I dont really know, we never had anything special associated with this day, hell i dont think we were even dating on her birthday. but still, i feel my stomach clench with pain at the loss of her. I find it amusing at least slightly at the fact that her leaving me over a year ago can still casue physical pain. Wonder if she knows that, wonder if she would care if she did. I dunno. Guess i just needed to write out how i am feeling, and sucks does a pretty good job of describing it.

May life bring you better than mine.