Suicide

Lets own up here. Most of us have thought about it, but have we really? i mean yeah all the pain everything goes away, but what about those left behind? Friends, Family, Lovers people we never even knew. As a guy who has has the most important person in the world to him call on the phone saying she was going to kill herself i get some of this. but what i dont get is how people can think that it will be better without them? I know if i had lost her then it would have torn me to pieces. but even if we had not been that close, still the ripples from her death would have cut at my soul. Maybe they dont see it like that.

I was talking to a close friend today. One of her friends killed himself a few days ago. She was the last person to see him alive. I look at her and see the misery and pain she is in. and that cuts into me. I have never met this person, I did not even know he exsisted. His death leaves scars even on those who do not know his name. I wonder if He knew that he mattered to me be casue he mattered to someone i know? Did he know how far the ripples would go? If he had might he have stopped. Would knowing that there are people out there that never even met him but still cared change anything?

I dont have the anwsers, i wish i did. I wish i could wave a wand and make it all better. It is just... Not good, It causes more hurt than it will ever absolve.

May Life in its Infinite Wisdom not bring you the pain of death.

Little Customization

Just Working on getting a few things more up. there is now a list of my favorite Webcomics. Later i may Give them some more space and brief overviews but i would recomend taking a look if you are a webcomic-y type of person.

I will be adding a post later this evening with some more personal stuff. It has been kinda crazy and i need to get some stuff out.

May Life in its Infinite wisdom Get you through the day.

Power of Music

It is great stuff. I was in a rather down mood when i got home from hanging out with Meg. there is a bit of a story behind that though. We had Lunch and then stopped at the study abroad place so that she could get some info. and then she is all like "we should go find a coffie shop so we can sit and chat." but then like a minute later she has changed her mind cause she cant find a parking space. Yeah. And i really do just want to spend some time talking to her, and you cant really talk over lunch that well at least i cant. takes me longer to get comfotable with people. So her blowing me off put me in a bad mood. and then i came home and sent off a couple of texts to Kay and only got a response once, (later i find out that her second reply never made it to my phone.) but at the time it pissed me off so i decided to screw the world and take a nap. (dont worry i am going somewhere with this). so after i wake up eat dinner i sti back down at my laptop and put on some Cranberries. less then 15 minutes later im feeling a lot better. Behold the power of good music.

May Life in its Infinite Wisdom Bring you the music you need to hear.

Girls Behaving Strangely.

So Yeah Seems like all My female friends have been behaving strangely the past couple of days. Just Strange stuff. IMing me Hello and then not replying after i say hi. the other major one sending me a Text message about seeing her Ex and feeling bad for it, casue she wanted to have him make amends for being a jerk to her. I guess i just dont understand what is going on any more. Maybe it isnt them who are behaving strange maybe its me... Can anyone ever be sure?

Maybe it is just that time of the month, Who knows. Well we know who knows but i am not gonna risk there friendship by asking if it is. Maybe they would be cool with telling me maybe they would just laugh at me. But i dont want to endanger any of my few friendships by prying to far into a girls personal things. But our society is to Pent up for this thing to really be discussed openly by both sexes despite it being something we all deal with.

I read Somewhere that the Femal Cycle was linked to that of the moon. Maybe this is a Hormone induced lunacy?

Whatever it is that is going on, Life in its Infinite Wisdom will decide how things play out.

Life in its Infinite Wisdom

Life in its Infinite Wisdom Has called me to create a blog.

I dont know how much i will use this or if i will even tell anybody that it exsists. So if your reading this then hey welcome to my new blog. I will probably spend a lot of time Just Ranting about Girls and work and anything else that i feel the need to get out on my virtual paper. I will probably post most of the Stuff i have had the pleasure or displeasure to experiance. If you like it Great. if not then thats cool to. Just dont Whine to me. Well off to do my Homework More to come this evening or Tomorrow or the next day as i feel like it.

May Life in its Infinite Wisdom take you where it will.
-Nexus Trimean