Suicide

Lets own up here. Most of us have thought about it, but have we really? i mean yeah all the pain everything goes away, but what about those left behind? Friends, Family, Lovers people we never even knew. As a guy who has has the most important person in the world to him call on the phone saying she was going to kill herself i get some of this. but what i dont get is how people can think that it will be better without them? I know if i had lost her then it would have torn me to pieces. but even if we had not been that close, still the ripples from her death would have cut at my soul. Maybe they dont see it like that.

I was talking to a close friend today. One of her friends killed himself a few days ago. She was the last person to see him alive. I look at her and see the misery and pain she is in. and that cuts into me. I have never met this person, I did not even know he exsisted. His death leaves scars even on those who do not know his name. I wonder if He knew that he mattered to me be casue he mattered to someone i know? Did he know how far the ripples would go? If he had might he have stopped. Would knowing that there are people out there that never even met him but still cared change anything?

I dont have the anwsers, i wish i did. I wish i could wave a wand and make it all better. It is just... Not good, It causes more hurt than it will ever absolve.

May Life in its Infinite Wisdom not bring you the pain of death.